It’s weird. I look around and see so many couples who are comfortable. Who are happy enough with their lives to not venture further and explore what else there is. They find someone that they gel with, who makes them happy, and who they can see themselves marrying. But is that what it is about? Simply finding someone who you are just “comfortable” with because you are too scared to take another chance? I feel like if you find yourself dating someone for an extended period of time you become to scared to break away. You want what is easy and seems like the right thing, instead of embracing the unknown and something that isn’t effortless. Because the way I see it, it shouldn’t be effortless, love is not effortless. There is a reason why opposites attract, it is because we should find someone who brings out these amazing sides of us, who intrigue us and keep us guessing. The minute we lose that intrigue and we stop guessing is the moment we find ourselves settling. We settle for the life that is “effortless” instead of wanting someone… something more. I want someone who teaches me something new every day. Who is opposite to me. Who wants into my own little world I live in. I don’t want to ever find myself settling, because that is not love.

Corey’s eyes are like a jungle
He smiles, it’s like the radio
He whispers songs into my window
In words that nobody knows

There’s pretty girls on every corner
That watch him as he’s walking home
Saying, does he know
Will you ever know?

You’re beautiful, every little piece, love
Don’t you know, you’re really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don’t, stay beautiful

Corey finds another way to be
The highlight of my day
I’m taking pictures with my mind
So I can save ‘em for a rainy day

It’s hard to make a conversation
When he’s taking my breath away
I should say
‘Hey, by the way’

You’re beautiful, every little piece, love
Don’t you know, you’re really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don’t, stay beautiful

If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I’ll never get to hold, at least you’ll know

You’re beautiful, every little piece, love
Don’t you know, you’re really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my front door
Oh, but if it don’t

Wow, it’s been a long time

I have become a lazy slug when it comes to blogging because my life has been taking so many weird twists and turns that writing about it would seem to just add to it, which I do not need.

But basically in a nutshell - I am confused.

Confused about what I want out of life, what I want to do - and this is with every aspect of my life.

I am happy with the person I am and have become, I feel like the person I was years ago which makes me happier than you can imagine, yet something seems to be missing, and I do think I am starting to see what it is.

It took all but one song to strike a cord and remind me, “Bring me Flowers” by Hope. It was my myspace song for a long time actually lol.

If this is what I want (I know I am being vague, but really who reads this anyways) than I have no idea how to get it, or even if I can anymore.

For the first time I have to act on my own and just go for it and throw everything out there but I am too scared.

So that my personal blog is no longer messy and filled with random photos of clothes etc. I have created another blog

http://www.iamnotawhore.tumblr.com

Please check it out and follow me :)

Im thinking of making a separate blog to post all my fashion photos on.

I think it’s a little confusing having my personal posts and thoughts and then BAM 30 pictures of clothes.

Hmmmm.